walking contradiction

25 years old.
a girl of irony.
studying in university of new south wales - ba/llb.
living and let live.
truly blessed by His and his love.

Created by Wedding Favors

time constrained

another dimension

partners in crime
benje. carol. crystal. daniel ho. davina. doreen. evelyn. ingrid. iniQx. jac. jess. julian. karen. kimberly. leon. li en. mabel. melissa. nick. shirley. stefan. xiaowei. yee huat. yusuf. zhong ying.

communication channels
christian forum. keeptouch forum. heartlight. save our tree e-magazine. yesterday .sg. good morning yesterday. riverlife. 陳志明.
Listed on BlogShares
. feelings and thoughts .

past inhabited
August 2003
September 2003
October 2003
November 2003
December 2003
January 2004
February 2004
March 2004
April 2004
May 2004
June 2004
July 2004
August 2004
September 2004
October 2004
November 2004
December 2004
January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
March 2011
May 2011

many bows
pictures: one
brushes: one two
pattern: one
designer: sweet_surrender
others: blogger blogskins

Subscribe to
Posts [Atom]

Saturday, April 24, 2010

permission has been given.
mum and aud was in sydney for the past 9 days and they just left this afternoon.
the apartment feels a little empty and i admit, i did cry.

after almost 5 years abroad, i'm seriously missing home a little more than i should.
when june/july comes around, there will be more to be discussed.
hopefully, home will come to me if i can't return, soon.

all good things must come to an end, doesn't it?

hearts 19:36:00
0 spoken words

Sunday, April 11, 2010

the other day, i started to think about what i used to do during my spare time. indulging in life's vices, moping about my life, writing poems and daydream myself away. then i realised what i truly missed. i miss writing. not just any ordinary writing. i missed writing poems on a regular basis. i miss how i will just indulge my entire being into writing that perfect poem that reflected my feelings at that very point in my life.

but this came to an end. as with all good things, it came to an abrupt end. the drama that was ever so present in my life at that point in time, which spurred my creative output, had left the building and i've been living in a relatively calm rhythm of life, rather than the constant ups and downs. and i guess like how everyone thinks the other pasture is always greener, i begin to miss my old life. the life of constantly not knowing, constantly second-guessing and constantly wondering when will i have my happily ever after. but i know i'm not happy there. i know i'm happy where i am now so why am i feeling this way?

i'm probably, actually, really addicted. for a while, i had my constant source of drama through other means but now that i'm sitting on a plateau, i'm having withdrawal symptoms. the dramas in my life were not simply there; it was there to give me my highs and my lows. some peeps do adrenalin-pumping activities; some peeps do alcohol or drugs; i do drama. will i ever be content? will i ever be satisfied? will i ever be truly happy? i don't think i'll ever know but i do hope that i will, so that i can avoid the possibility of just settling.

so i guess i'll just sit here now, with a glass of fine cognac on the rocks, and wonder who am i supposed to be as i stare into the night sky.

hearts 01:39:00
0 spoken words