tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56399822024-02-21T16:32:26.993+11:00walk beside me25 year old learning to live and let live.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.comBlogger1627125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-24215949753170190992011-05-11T01:54:00.000+10:002011-05-11T01:54:57.425+10:00i told myself that i should minimise my use of this blog as much as possible as it's meant to record only moments of negativity. i didn't realise that less than 30 weeks away from our wedding, i'll be penning something so negative about us.
when we first started out as a couple, you assured me that i'm your baby and that you'll never intentionally hurt me. now, 4 years down the road, why am i lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-61521117838218284692011-03-26T03:37:00.002+11:002011-03-26T03:39:41.238+11:00i won't lie.i still miss you.just talking about you today nearly brought tears to my eyes.i miss you.i miss you more than words could ever express.but you left.you left me alone.to deal with all the things that the world could possibly throw.you left me.when i thought you'll be there to witness my happy days.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-9897348723918330902010-10-10T03:44:00.003+11:002010-10-10T03:54:11.893+11:00- wish -there's a wish buried deep,deep in the abyss of my heart.a heart that has been tested,tested enough, i foolishly thought.this wish resurfaced yet again,again it broke through the barriers.these barriers was angrily placed,placed to prevent any more tears.that wish should have just left,left and flutter to my only solace.the solace was none other than you,you who selfishly left me to lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-75187851969625787612010-10-06T02:13:00.002+11:002010-10-06T02:17:22.722+11:00was reading someone's posts on flowerpod and i started thinking of you.you once said to me that you wanna lock me up so that i don't get myself into trouble and let guys hurt me. now i'm asking you, where am i to lock myself up then when you left this world and left me heartbroken?started tearing again when i heard the lines "far across the distance and spaces between us. you have come to show lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-79914938674068134842010-09-14T20:04:00.000+10:002010-09-14T20:05:18.959+10:00i'm proud to say that these days have been happy days, thus, the neglect of this blog, which chronicles the down portions of my life.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-8607929372279797742010-08-24T22:43:00.003+10:002010-08-24T22:50:28.172+10:00the hostage situation in Manila broke my heart.i chanced upon some of the photos taken during the hostage and, honestly, looking at those grim faces of individuals who are about to meet their doom was not pleasant. my partner asked me if i've watched the 'live' video of the stand-off and i replied a firm no. i can't. i just can't. the thought of having to watch a video, which was 'live' at the lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-86719715497620231862010-08-19T02:44:00.001+10:002010-08-19T02:45:33.128+10:00i dreamt of my grandpa last night.i was happy till i realised i've not dreamt of you for a long time.but grandpa, don't be upset k? i miss you too. please visit me more often. :)lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-15893781616526858312010-08-15T18:14:00.002+10:002010-08-15T18:16:23.697+10:00had an extremely bad argument with my partner yesterday. when he start scolding me when he's drunk, i can still somewhat dismiss it but when he start accusing me, about similar things that he was scolding me when he's drunk, when he's sober, i can't dismiss it further.i'm still affected by what he has said.i mean if i'm that horrible a person, why the hell would you want to marry me?i'm not a lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-24078652186738356832010-08-11T02:19:00.002+10:002010-08-11T02:21:47.433+10:00this blog has been a relatively depressing chronicle of my life.as of today, i joined tumblr to chronicle the happier moments.this blog will continue to function as the venue of my laments.hopefully, it's the other that will prevail and persist through time.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-78109180404979106602010-08-10T17:47:00.001+10:002010-08-10T17:49:11.712+10:00graduating in about a year's time, if nothing cocks up.almost 5 years of university life later, what do i do?i start looking through SIM website and wonder if i should do a part-time course whilst i work.i think i've gone bonkers.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-70428859338968818002010-08-09T22:56:00.002+10:002010-08-09T22:56:53.088+10:00R.I.P.the only thing that separates a depressed from the deceased is listen.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-41542608844438881022010-08-09T02:29:00.002+10:002010-08-09T02:43:17.581+10:00woke up crying. nose was stuffed and i could still feel my tears flowing.strangely, in this dream, there was nothing that was really about me. i just happened to be an orphan, adopted by a family who recently lost their wife/mother. somewhere, somehow, the youngest daughter of that family made a run for her room, very much in tears. i followed suit and asked her why did she leave so abruptly. shelalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-8959615701761392892010-08-08T03:32:00.006+10:002010-08-08T03:38:30.162+10:00i'm just 19 days away from you really, though there's one obstacle that threatens to destroy that.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-34342954879534744422010-08-05T01:50:00.002+10:002010-08-05T02:02:48.076+10:00Mosque and Islamic centre to be built near Ground Zeroupon reading this article, i felt compelled to comment on it. like the majority of the world's population, i condemned the September 11 attack. the senseless attack by these terrorist organisations for whatever righteous reasons they may have, attacked not just the community of individuals within New York at that point in time, but globally lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-44677626278363186162010-07-28T18:03:00.002+10:002010-07-28T18:07:09.278+10:00just took a short trip down memory lane. pictures of him and her was hidden within that treasure chest. i wish i know what they think of me now. i wish i knew why she over-estimated her own health. i wish i knew why he allowed himself to waste away.there are some things in life that i'll always be hunting answers for but i know i can never find them. for the angels who hold the key to them will lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-24101244054987886462010-07-27T18:52:00.003+10:002010-07-27T18:53:32.487+10:00i miss waking up at 0730hrs to bask in the sun of sydney, with a nice pot of coffee and 2 toasted bread to welcome the day.i shall torture myself for the next 2 nights, just so that i can enjoy the mornings once more.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-17309340593258441842010-07-25T23:50:00.003+10:002010-07-25T23:54:48.068+10:00in an ever-growing affluent society and with most individuals educated, i don't understand how is it that customs are more important than sustaining the Earth. we all have to inhabit this Earth, whether we like it or not. yet, instead of protecting her, we are destroying her. why is that the case?have humans became so smug and complacent with their place on this planet? this Earth can die and lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-46197661967695141102010-07-25T00:30:00.001+10:002010-07-25T00:30:45.174+10:00Depression can seem worse than terminal cancer, because most cancer patients feel loved and they have hope and self-esteem.-- David D. Burnslalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-46108233712702617602010-07-24T19:21:00.002+10:002010-07-24T19:29:28.513+10:00the thought of abandoning my blog came up once again. reading through the archives, feeling the words i've written, i can't help but realise how true yunting's words were. my blog is nothing but a depressing chronicle of my life. despite the fact that i'm planning, alongside my man, a once-in-a-lifetime (though some may argue that that's arguable) event, my blog rarely chronicles the happy lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-19866185872843794462010-07-24T01:43:00.000+10:002010-07-24T01:44:08.018+10:00at times, i do feel like the luckiest lady on earth.then it strikes.and everything goes numb once again.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-14563124443784292342010-07-23T16:07:00.000+10:002010-07-23T16:10:14.462+10:00selfless is just an extremely positive term for selfish.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-45188830395260085482010-07-23T16:01:00.002+10:002010-07-23T16:04:09.788+10:00bought my law books for advanced IP, international trade law and the 1st volume of law and social theory's course notes. i've not bought any thing for advanced contract and the 2nd volume of LST and i've already spent AUD303.with all these books in hand, my reading schedule is set.i'm all set for 12 weeks of pure legal torture again.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-45283586168446949792010-07-21T02:30:00.002+10:002010-07-21T02:33:15.899+10:00yesterday, my man called and informed me of a piece of news but had to hang up before i could respond to that piece of news.when i finally got hold of him again, i told him that there's no need to inform me of such things cos every time he mentioned similar news conveyed by a particular individual, i'll see that that's not true.it's like the proverbial boy who cried wolf.lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-64109014695820658772010-07-19T11:37:00.002+10:002010-07-19T11:45:10.169+10:00for almost 5 years now, i've been shuttling between singapore and sydney.when i went back this time round, i couldn't help but feel a tinge of sadness, as i witnessed the changes before my eyes.5 years ago, my little sister was still of a single digit age but now, she's growing into a teenager.5 years ago, my little brother was still wearing shorts but now, he's wearing a uniform.5 years ago, my lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5639982.post-7052226256595546082010-07-05T14:24:00.002+10:002010-07-05T14:31:40.924+10:00i'm not an angel. hell no. i'm like a devil in a child.mistakes were made in my other relationships.poor choices, ridiculous selfish-ness, etc.but NEVER have i slept with a former partner's brother.there's a line to be drawn; a very thick black line to be drawn.certain limits are never meant to be crossed.not even in the current despondent century that we're in.the code of every brotherhood lalahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12671569177168987966noreply@blogger.com0