i grew up praying to remain innocent.
innocent about friendships.
innocent about relationships.
innocent about humans.
innocent about the world.
unfortunately, sometimes God has other plans for you.
i grew up becoming cynical.
cynical about friendships.
cynical about relationships.
cynical about humans.
cynical about the world.
when my birthday came and went,
i was in two extremes of the emotive world.
at one end, i was overjoyed by the outpouring of love and wishes that i got from my friends and loved ones.
at other end, i was greatly disappointed by a couple of missing individuals, peeps whose friendships i've greatly treasured.
doubts were cast as to when friendship began and when it ends.
truly, what's the meaning of it all?
we can't have the best of both worlds.
we gain some and we lose some.
that's just how the world spins.
still, i would love to have retain that innocence.
and never have gained the cynicism.