heartlight has been sending me notes of love since i've gone on a hiatus from the net, to clear my thoughts, to clear my heart, etc.The love we have in our youth is superficial compared to the love that an old man has for his old wife.
-- Will Durant
isn't that so true? i was at chatswood the other day to collect my keys and i saw this elderly couple in front of me. the lady was blind and she was asking her husband in mandarin, "are you still there?" the husband just silently tug onto her handbag and led her up the stairs. love. it is still around, isn't it?The art of love... is largely the art of persistence.
-- Albert Ellis
but if i do persist, what difference will it make? every morning, i'm waking up to cold sweat cos i've been havin those nightmares. it's just so painful. is perserverance always about suffering and enduring?VERSE:
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
-- 1 Corinthians 13:6-7
if even the bible says love always perseveres, then i truly question myself. maybe i don't really love you, since i can't seem to persevere long enough. or maybe i do really love you, cos i'm still hoping...Love is not affectionate feeling, but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained.
-- C. S. Lewis
then the quote from C.S. Lewis came, and i realise maybe i really do. all that i pray for is for your happiness and your well-being. maybe i really do love you. maybe i've really learnt the precious lesson of love.Love doesn't just sit there like a stone, it has to be made, like bread; remade all the time, made new.
-- Ursula K. LeGuin
but how do you apply this lesson? how do you remake it; make it new? is it even possible after all the damage and all the hurt and pain? is it ever possible to leave behind all the negatives and focus on the future and the positive?Hate destroys the vessel it's kept in.
-- Author Unknown
focusing on the negatives will only destroy me, you and us further. it's time to really let it all go and let Him decide. He has spoken lots to me lately, making me think really hard on the value and meaning of love.
i was watching sex and the city the other day and carrie bradshaw said something regarding how each time she seems to move on, mr. big would return into her life with a bang then leaves her in shit. yet, somehow she always readily returns to him. why is that so? love.do you understand me and love now?
i hope someday you will finally do.