been having nightmares.
dreamt that i was asleep and had a nightmare. tried to scream when i woke up in my dream but no voice could be garnered. i started hearing alot of voices speaking to me. am i heading for a mental breakdown?
haven't been really speaking to you lately.
friends have been telling me alot of things.
it's painful. it really is.
crying myself to sleep almost every night,
exception being on nights when i'm intoxicated.
you don't seem to be aware of this new trend.
that you'll come to me when you need me.
walk away when the need is no longer.
have i became a mere convenience?
for your emotions, desires and needs?
i asked myself constantly.
have i hurt you in any way that i didn't know?
that allowed you to bring upon these.
have i brought you any harm or pain?
that allowed you to treat me as such.
if i recalled, whatever my memory permits,
i went through the torrents of hurt and pain,
whilst you were gallavanting with girls.
you came back and made several claims,
then you decided to walk out the door again.
who am i to you? what am i?
if i truly did make you happy like you said,
if i was really the girl you once cared so much for,
if you really saw me as me,
why? why would you subject me to these?